I Want to Know You- An Urge

Over all this time ,you've been thinking ,why the hell he's after me...?? :P Here's the answer for all yo'r questions, that what i've been upto...? 

All those scampy things & acts ...were just only because...

I Want To Know You 

I want to know you. You seem like someone worth knowing. Every day I feel like I’m surrounded by people with hard edges and sour faces but I get the sense that you’re different. Too often people seem to think that they have the answers to everything. Their faces are trapped in permascowls and they can’t be bothered with anything besides their own narcissism. You aren’t like that. You still ask questions. You’re still looking for the answers.

I want to know how your weekend was (I never want to know these types of things but you’re the exception to all my rules) and I want to know how you got that scar on your knee (biking accident when you were twelve? Tell me more! This story is more riveting than The Hunger Games!) and I want to know about your mom and dad(your whole family) , I want to protect you. I want to preserve your innocence and drink it up for myself. You learn from me and I’ll learn from you. Deal?

I know all of these things seems stupid,but I have wasted my life's precious four years just sitting

 down on the bench & now I don't want to waste a single second . I want to know about all of your friends,about all the pranks you did together. I want to know what you think of me as a person, I want to know each & everything that's roams around you.

In order for all of this to work though, you have to let me know you. You have to let me cut you open and trust that I won’t accidentally hit a nerve. You have to accept me for my shortcomings and understand that you’re a better person than I am. I'm a little rotten. Please don’t let that deter you though. Because when I look at you, I see someone who makes sense. I see an anomaly — someone who’s untouched by all of the modern inventions and hang ups. I see someone I want to know.

The Changed You , The Changed Me !!!

Our love story started long before She and I ever actually met.
And when you think about it, most love stories start that way. Every moment leading up to the one in which you meet your future soul mate somehow shapes you and prepares you for that person you were fated for. Any previous heartbreaks or dark days or lonely nights can be crucially important in the grand scheme of things—sometimes we need to know what something feels like when it’s wrong before we can ever really know it when another thing is RIGHT.
Any ways , she will never admit ,she loved me, or may be she is right that way , or may be it's just a one sided love...god Knows....!!
I dont know, what really changed her, her perception towards me......still dont have a hunch.
8 months ago from now on ,when she was at her hometown, very far away from this messy & polluted area , she was at her best , the memories of those days , are still just the same.
The care , the love ,the curiosity to know each other, discussing daily routine, the small fights over nothing.
I dont know what really changed her , there are so many things roaming in my head
May be i did something, that made her change her mind
or may be she has got an option better than me.
I dont know !!! but what i observed is, she changed me completely .
I am a different man now , when i compare myself with who i was a year back ,i feel proud.
she taught me alot.
She got the job , she came to Gurgaon , things were good in the starting , at some point ,she was at her best, but then suddenly things started changing .
I still wonder, does the priorities of people changes with the rise in their standard of living & rise in status.
I dont know , I did every thing what i could have done, to save it, whatever it was between us.
I now, fear to get into relationship, to rely on anyone , i dont tell my problems to anyone now, because i know no one doesnt really care.
For a person like me, love happens a single time in life,I never cared about any other girl like that, never been attached to anyone like that . 
And In spite of the fact , that i have been insulted , thrown out of her life , i dont know but apart of me still hopes to get her back in my life , This may be because of the changes she brought into me or may be cuz of my fear to engaged with someone else , cuz i cant even picture myself with any other girl.
its not like that, that she didnt knew my intentions, she have always known that i love her.
Its only my badluck that i wont make her fall in love with me & on the other hand its me who loves everything about her.
From my childhood I have learnt Change is the need of time , change is always good , but this change aint good for nothing, I can put anything on stake to rollback that change, the change that caused differences between us.