"She" - An achievement

I feel lucky  to know her, once it was just a dream,to know her to talk to her,to make her laugh & to fight with her over lil things.

I feel that it is my biggest achievement to let her know that I love her.
I have tried & wasted my four -five years just to try to let  her know that I am deeply & madly in love with her.

I never used to believe in love at first sight but my perception changed when I saw her, I got curious to know about her.
the feelings & emotions , the respect , the attachment & the care that I sensed after knowing her , I dont have words to pen it down, ,that time was just amazing , it was one of a life time experience.
 I learnt a lot , she gave me support, always motivated me , when I was feeling low... things were really good , when she was around...I was feeling accomplished. ...what more would I had asked from life...when I had her.

Achievement to know her in person, to know her family, & to tell her about mine , to discuss metaphysical things

I still have the memories of her generous laughs , her gossips....I might have achieved a lot in my professional life ,but in my personal lyf I will always be scarce, scarce of her.

You !!!

Fighting each day with myself, not to talk to you ....not to write to you.

I want to talk to you... still I hear echoes of your laugh... still your.... "ho gaya...? "
"Haha ....very funny "... "mtlb ki"

Makes me think of you... !!!
Still when I am travelling by metro ....my eyes searches for you...thinking may be someday again I"ll go lucky again to see you...my eyes searches the people's faces on road for you ,every time I am in Gurgaon !!!

Missing my inspiration....my drive force....which motivated me to work...to innvovate !!!

I thought wid tym the feeling for you will fade away...I tried moving on....its been 3 months...but nothing changed ...except that we dont talk anymore.

Still....everyday I put your number on dialling screen...but cancelled the dialling... still your words
"I dont feel happy talking to you" **pinches me**
This is the only thing , holding me back to not to talk to you...
I dont know ....how to deal with  it....but everyday you're the first thing that comes up in my mind & last before I goes to sleep.

" I don't know where I stand with you, nor do I know what I mean to you. All I know is that every time I think of you, I want to be with you."

"My Fairy" - A conversation

Me : I know you since my childhood.

She : ho gaya ?

Me : sahi me...!  Bachpan se hi meri dadi mujhe pariyo ki kahani sunaati thi !!! So I grown up hearing stories of you.

She : kon si movie se churaya ?

Me : does it really matters ?

She : **Speechless** , **Topic Changed**

A lonely Thursday !!!

I dont know but today I am missing her a lot....I dont know what so special , its a normal Thursday lyk every week  , full of work...her thoughts. ...*sighs*

I still remember, she used to say " every misunderstanding between her & me , clears out on Thursdays. ...her belief in Thursdays, was so strong....belief in SAI....
* Om Sai Ram*
& I believed in everything she used to believe, I started going to SAI temple...just nearby to my staY in Vasant Kunj....I always used to pray about her...as I was happy wid everything I had, I was just scarce of her....she told me once, she is talking to me cuz of SAI...since then my belief in SAI got stronger & stronger....
I used to pray , "I want to meet her"....every week that was my agenda of going to temple & still its the same....nothing changed!!!

Every now & then this is it what I have always wanted , I wanted to meet her...its not lyk that I was so eager to date her or to go on long drives....I just wanted to meet her....just to hold her hand in mine....& just stare into her eyes....we never made eyes contacts for more than 5-10 secs...I love her deep brown  gorgeous eyes.

i dint say I love you , to hear back "I Love you too" from her side...i just wanted to make sure she knew...thats it.

I feel lyk just to be wid her all day long...just to make her happy...to laugh wid her.....to tell things I always wanted to tell her, which I wasn't able to pen down...

& finally i met her one day,....all my prayers paid ...I met her in Delhi metro....I thanked God for making my wish come true...those 15 -16 mins were just magical....I felt heavenly....although we dint spoke ...I heard her laughing....she looked happy....gorgeous as always.

Ironically , we met  a week after she disconnected completely from me...I know , it might be somewhat embarrasing moments for her...but that incident left me with something to remember for a lifetime.

*gasps*
Hmmm...this Thursday I am in Aligarh , lying lonely in a hotel room thinking of her....listening to her songs....
& thinking if she is missing me too...or it is just an another usual Thursday.

Aint it Enough ?

Instead of letting yourself being consumed by the agony of unfulfilled love and by misery, you should be thankful and consider yourself lucky because the wonderful thing is you have eventually met someone with whom you are profoundly, genuinely and invariably in love. That’s enough, isn’t it?

"Moments"

I am not able to forget the moments that we spend together talking...the things you told me...the things I've done for you...the things you shared with me....I feel lucky ,I came to know you.
The Moment you shared your parents picture...that very moment ,you dont know how much emotional I got...at that time finally I was convinced that you trust me alot ...I was so happy...i told you , your mother's so gorgeous just like you... & you told me , that you took after your buwa ji...
I still remember each & every little talk we had...
& by sharing your childhood pictures....you left me speechless...I wouldnt have expected that much...I dont know what was in your mind that day....but you were at your best...the "very you " I used to know...just amazing.

The "Moment" you called by yourself to talk to lavi  , I was overjoyed. ....I miss those "moments"....moreover I miss you .